I wanted to start this blog to document my pregnancy and planning my home birth. I want to remember for myself and it will be out there for anyone that could be helped by our story. I am 26 weeks pregnant with our 3rd little one and we are currently planning a home birth. It will actually be an HBAC (home birth after Caesarean) I want a place to write down my fears my feelings my excitements and anticipations. Please keep in mind this is personal information and the last thing I need or what is criticism the purpose of this blog was not intended for that.

My first child who is 3 years old now was  a csection. He was IUGR and only 3.10 at birth. We had a trial of labor and around 4-5 cm he started having fetal distress, so I ended up with a section. His birth and the events after still scar my heart and soul as a mother and I can barely talk about his delivery without shedding tears. People don't realize the life long effects ,whether good or bad, have on a mother.

My first born was only 5 months and still exclusively nursing when I found out I was pregnant with number 2!!! I knew immediately I wanted a VBAC and wouldn't accept anything less than trying. I went to my first prenatal appt with my OB and mentioned a vbac to him. Without hesitating he said absolutely not. He wanted me to have a scheduled c-section. I then found a CNM that would allow me to try for a vbac to care for us and deliver my baby. She was wonderful and I loved the switch from an OB to a midwife. Because of my previous baby with IUGR she scheduled a few more ultrasounds than usual but it was a pretty uneventful pregnancy. At 36 weeks we went for an ultrasound to check her size and they suggested an induction for low fluid and her size, which was estimated around 5 lbs. I think they were scared that she might have growth problems like her older brother. Although i'm a small person at only 5ft even so its likely a 5 lb baby at 36 weeks is perfectly normal for me.

So thankfully I had a successful VBAC and although there are things I would have changed about her labor and delivery ultimately I got a vbac and that meant more to me than anything.

So here we are at 26 weeks with our 3rd and for many many many reasons I decided a home birth is what my heart really desires. We found a midwife (whom I will not name) and we love her!

My first trimester was rough! I had terrible morning sickness but around 20 weeks I finally started feeling more like myself! So far everything looks good, I did see an OB for concerns about her size but the Doctors couldn't find any problem that could be causing her to be small, so I am comfortable staying with my plan of a home birth. I feel like my midwife is more than capable of tracking her growth and making sure she is continuing to grow at a good rate.  At my 20 week anatomy scan they saw echogenic bowel but only about 10 days later it was already resolved. So heres my journey in a nutshell up to where we are now! I have an appt with my homebirth midwife next week and she hopes to see growth. She wants the baby to be around 2 lbs or close to it. At my last appt I was 24 weeks and measuring 20 so she will want to see some growth there as well. Until next time!! I'll try to update as much as possible! :)